as of lately it’s hard for me to enjoy the happy moments in my life. Why? Because in my lifetime whenever I had a joyous, happy moment, i get shot down right after. and I’m not even some stupid emotional teenager who gets sad because my parents didn’t let me go out one night, i genuinely just get shot down multiple times. There have been very good time periods within my life that I’ve tried to enjoy to the fullest, and right after i get nothing but straight kicks to my chest kicking me all the way back down. everytime I feel like i’m comfortable in life and happy, something completely unexpected throws me down. it’s changed my view on everything, the trust i have in people, and my general mindset when trying to have a good time. i’m cautious, very cautious, because in the end it’s me, myself, and i.
the most admirable quality of a good friend is when they are the same person they were in middleschool, freshmen year, and now. It’s so rare but something so good to see.